mood swings.
like, seriously... I gotta get out more. stupid apprpaching winter and effed up sleep schedule. I gotta start going to bed and waking up earlier.
also need a laptop. my brother's quit working and he didn't want to fix it, so he said if my dad could figure it out or take it somewhere to be fixed, I could have it. about six weeks ago. I am supposed to have a drawing tablet and a whole bunch of software, like, five weeks ago. I need to start paying more attention to my emails and, uh, life. just pay attention to shit. I have so much to figure out that I don't know where to start. I always do things this way.
like in the spring, after Russell's funeral and everything I had so much trouble trying to catch up that I nearly didn't graduate. I don't want to do that any more.
I need to fix my life. and by myself, my social skills are a hell of a lot worse than Monique's. (don't worry, I don't expect anyone else to get that.) I CAN'T MAKE PHONE CALLS. NAMELY TO PEOPLE I DON'T TALK TO IN PERSON. no, I don't understand, either. oh, and money scares me. but any way... I'm hungry.
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